Last week I was looking for a sign for whether or not to leave early or live on pain killers for the next seven weeks. I got my answer when I almost died! Well Ndeli (my friend) thought I did die! (until I got up) Yes I was hit by a car it was awful! It’s a long story and if you ever want to hear it I am more then happy to tell you one day. Bottom line that’s when I decided Namibia was trying to kill me and it was time for m to leav. It is also when I learned  police and ambulances don’t really exist after all TIA. I never thought I would make Namibians friends that I would miss, but today I’m getting ready to say goodbye to them and I’m ready to cry. This has been a phenomenal chapter in my life with so many stories to share. I wish I could go back to the north one last time and share a dinner under the stars with my host family, eat one more fat cake, go get some capana, go to the informal markets, edit one last report on labour and go back to the dunes. During my time here I’ve had my appendix taken out, found out I needed another surgery, gotten hit by a car and been to the hospital three times. I have also gone quadding, climbed mountains, gone bunjee jumping and so much more. The good will always far outweigh the bad. I am leaving tomorrow with a larger group of friends then I could imagine. Namibia will always be apart of me! I have learned more about tribalism, inequalities, life in the developing world and life in the developed world then I ever could in a classroom. I never want to lose this moment, this feeling, this understanding that a five dollar cup of coffee is over 25% of some peoples daily wages and not worth the price or that I’m lucky to have wireless internet or life as a minority and being stared at every time I walk into a room and every time I talk to one of my black friends at the club. I don’t know if my mind has been fully decolonized but it’s getting there. I’m proud and pleased that because of my surgery I will be officially leaving a part of myself in Namibia as well as bringing a new part of my heart home that has been opened by this place!